子供のように

「子供たちをうちやっておけ、私のところに来るのをとめるな。天の国をうけるのは、このような者たちである」
- マテオ 19:14

いつも子供のような素直な心を持つことが大切だ、と言われたことを忘れないように…物心ついたころから、"はずかしがりや"だと言い続けていた自分が、イエズスにすがりついている女の子に表れている。人に良く思ってもらいたい一心で、「自分には能力がないから出来ません」と言うかわりに、「私ははずかしがりやだから」と、その場逃れをしたことが多々ある。人に笑われたくない、という気持ちが自分を必要以上におさえつけ、自分なりに持っている素晴らしさも、それを人と分かち合える機会を十分に生かしきれなかった思い出もある。子供のような素直な心とは、自分自身になり切るということではないだろうか。だが、こんな自分をも神は深く愛して下さっている。

Like a child

“ Let the children come to me. Do not hinder them. The kingdom of God belongs to such as these. “
- Matthew 19:14

It has been important for me to remember this always…to have a heart that is simple as of a child. I see myself in a girl who is holding on to Jesus from his back. I was shy as a child. There have been many times that I had used shyness as an excuse, instead of admitting and accepting my inabilities. It was almost unbearable for me to be laughed at by others in my attempt to impress others by what I can do, and made mistakes because of nervousness in the process. These experiences might have made me not to assert myself as much as I should have. It is easier said than done, “No risk, No gain. “Even though only thing I wanted to gain was to feel being accepted by others. I come to know that a simplicity of heart might be attained only by accepting who I am as a whole, including my strengths and limitations. And it is in believing in myself as a child of God who is accepted by God above all else.